Weak Dream: A view into yourself

 I plan to learn physics and solve programming problems this weekend. But I all played Plant and Zombies. I don’t know why.  It started when I surfed Youtube and found a fucking pvz video. It is the mod version of Pvz (Fusion mode by China Wizard). Basically, it has new plants, and the gameplay is the same. However, it is more difficult and requires more brain power. This excites me.  My brain said that I had to learn Physics and programming because of the upcoming test. But my heart said to play it. I listen to my heart. I play Pvz for three days. Last night, I didn’t sleep, play Pvz from 8pm to 5am the next day. My eyes were really sore, so I went out for a walk. I missed my EyeCare software, but it was annoying when I played games so I turned it off. Yes, it was the first time I was outside my dorm, in the campus at 3am. But after return, I tried open youtube to find the physics video, but I clicked on a Pvz video. My heart controlled me. It force me continued pla...

 I feel like I was abandoned in Taiwan. I know exactly where this feeling forms. I don't have too many friends here. Or just don't have anyone with the same interests as me, anyone to confide in. Some of my high school friends texted me to ask if I was doing well, and I felt somewhat comforted. However, they remind me of my old life.  The students in my departments always have parties together, hang out, practice drama together, and do group activities. I don't know how they became so close so quickly and where they got the information from the above session. Maybe they have their own group line chat, or they just tell each other when they have lunch together. Yeah, I usually have lunch alone cause I don't have friends here. I watched my high school friends' stories. All my best friends have their own lives when they go to college. They looked happy with each other. They have a life that I always dreamed of. I have my dream university, but my life is not good at all...

 I had to adjust my emotions to write this article. When I went through the security gate at the airport, I did not turn back to look at my parents but kept walking because I was crying. I realized it would be long before I could see my family again.  When I heard the announcement, "Good afternoon, ladies and gentlemen, and welcome to Taipei. We've just landed at Taoyuan International Airport, where the local time is fifteen twenty-five in the afternoon.", I know I have lost many things, but I will gain something that no one else could ever have.  I've been to Taiwan for a month. I stay in Hsinchu. I'm a student abroad studying computer science at National Yang-Ming Chiao Tung University on a scholarship. I have achieved my dream.  My journey to apply for study abroad was urgent and arduous because I initially had no intention of studying in Taiwan. The first day I arrived in Taiwan was September 6th, late for a week. I missed orientation day and the first class...