Live in a lonely city

 People who live in the country want to move to the city. People who live in the city want to move out.

 It is weird when I think about my future. Each day, I move to some fixed locations in my life. Every day, I study hard, hoping for a day to become rich and get a reputation, to achieve what society defaults to. Even so, no matter how hard I try, I’m still just another nameless soul in this city.

 During my school years, I have been told to study hard and to push myself. But I never have been taught to prepare for a lonely life in the city.

 The world is developing every day. Along with that, people rush around, and sorrows sink deeper into their souls. We have more friends on Instagram. We share our lives through photos. But we feel more isolated. Because we only share happy moments. We seek attention through happy photos because no one cares about our loneliness. We appreciate every reaction from everyone, even though there are people we only meet once in our lives. We are so lonely.

 Live in a big city with a busy schedule took me a long time to have another Sunday. I have thought a lot about it. I wonder when the number of people I can share my true feelings with stopped. I wonder how long it has been since the last time I smiled sincerely without being forced.

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