Weak Dream: A view into yourself

 After much contemplation, I've finally grasped why I'm perpetually time-pressed.  I don't have goal. That's the reason. I realized it many times ago, and tried to fix it. I have written my goal many times, in Notion, in Plan, in Note of my life, in my Blog. I told myself that I overcame wasting time. But the problem is I never follow my goal.  I just realized it today because I've been learning about stock investment, even though I only have a month left before the IELTS test. I know making money isn't my main goal, but I don't understand why I'm spending all my afternoons on stocks instead of preparing for the IELTS. I even skipped makeup classes at school just to focus on stock investment.  Nah, knowing the problem, but to solve the problem is a different story. My ability to stick to a plan is pretty weak. I can manage it for only a day or two before going back to my usual habits.  Mentioned again follow the plan, one month ago, I told myself I have

 Perhaps, during 3 years of high school, many of you have uttered these words? Compete, refugee, hate, envy, etc.  Originally, my class was formed by many members. Each person has a different personality. That creates diversity in my class. But, because of the different personalities, and differences in finances, my class lost its sense of unity.  It is my class. Almost all members of my class are boys. But I don't know, I don't know why my class dives into many groups??? As a class monitor, I can't do anything. Today is the teachers' day, I told my class to clap their hands when teachers come in, but no one heard me. Today, the girls celebrate boys' day for my class. But they gave presents by group. I couldn't do anything. I didn't play with any groups in my class. I play with everyone. I tried to fulfill my responsibility as a class monitor. But I don't know if I was right. I know my class dives into groups for a long time. But I denied it. I said to e

 I seem to lack luck when it comes to individual tests, consistently performing poorly. However, in team contests, my luck takes a positive turn. I vividly recall a recent math test where I randomly answered 30 questions and got them all wrong. Similarly, last year, my random selections led to a mere 2 out of 10, the lowest score in my class. While I recognize that scores don't solely determine success, low grades do limit my opportunities for success.  But in team contest (football as example), I won the first prize with my team, although I didn't do anything. Remember last year, I won the gold medal with my team too.  I hope in the future, I will be lucky to success too, like in any contest. If I won't have enough luck to success, I will success by my skills. A real man makes his own luck. Yeah, I have to improve my skills now to improve my luck.  Lately, I've been staying up late, not for studying or leisure, but for CODING! Engaged in an Arduino project focused on a