Change the past

 Today, I had a conversation with my mentor. We made small talk, trying to overcome the language barrier and understand each other. In that convo thing, I find the best information I want to know: the exchange program to the USA. Computer Science in UIUIC?

 My family has wanted me to go to study in America for a long time. But as a child, I didn't understand anything; I was just naughty and did the opposite of what my parents wanted. I used to have a list of things to make my parents angry. That is what I regret the most. I used to tell my parents I didn’t want to study abroad. When I realized what my parents did to me and changed my mind, it was too late. I almost had to study in my home country, luckily I found Taiwan, the right place to pursue university. My delayed maturity cost my parents time, money, and health, as well as mine.

 But now I'm standing before an unprecedented opportunity to correct my mistakes. I know I can't just sit still and pray while contemplating my future, letting fate take its course like I did in the past. I must take action now. I'm truly excited.

 I cannot return to the past. But I know that I am currently in what will become the past of my future self. I will make sure my future self won't regret my present actions. I found my motivation. I have to write my life again. I will definitely go to the US for a master's degree. I still have a chance. To my future self, if you are observing me from 10 light-years away, watch as I transform myself in the present.

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