Weak Dream: A view into yourself

 My friend K told me about a web name chotot, which sell a lot of cheap old machines. I want a new phone, so I found a cheap old iPhone on that website. I spent 3 days only to find the best iPhone and best price, and I decided to buy iPhone by a person. He said his mom used it, so he sold only 11 millions dong. I never buy an iPhone before, so I didn't know how to check if it legit. And guess what, he said the iPhone had the original screen came from Apple. I still don't know why I believe him. The iPhone didn't have the True Tone, and the screen burn in. That make it less than 11 millions dong. So I bought an expensive iPhone.  When I came home, I couldn't use the haptic touch. I didn't know if the function of the iPhone not working right or all of the iPhone like that. Guess what, when I came to the shop, they said my iPhone is fall down so the speaker is dented, the vibrate is broken. That's why the old user replaced the screen.  I regret about how my money s...

 I won a scholarship to study in Taiwan. Even though I didn't win the scholarship to study in Australia, I was still happy because I would become an international student.  Besides my happiness, I feel sad about giving away the iPad 3 for free. Today, I went with my best friend to survey the price of an iPad 3. They said my iPad broke the screen and  broke the  battery, so they couldn't buy it. I understand.  It took us two hours  just  to ask.   Couldn't  sell the iPad,  we went on our schedule ,  to Van Phuc flea markets.  The seller here defines my iPad price as only 20k dong. I couldn't believe it. After asking many shops, a man finally bought my iPad with 50k dong. I didn't want to sell it, but my best friend told me to sell it because I couldn't sell it in the future. I sold it and got 50k dong.   You  believe me? I lost 50k dong when I went back to my home. After selling the iPad for 50k dong, I immed...

 I lost my motivation. Let me explain.  I won the second prize at the National Piano Festival last month. I told my teacher a few days ago, and she posted it on the Internet. Now, everyone in my school knows that. They always ask me to going out, because they saw the prize I won: 100 million. Actually, it was a voucher, I will have long time to exchange it to money.  What bothers me is that they also ask about my aim to study abroad in Taiwan. I'm not sure if I can do it, but now the whole school knows. So, if I fail to study abroad, it will be very humiliating. Aww!  Today, I don't want to do anything. I don't know what I want. I caught a cough and runny nose, and it has made me tired for a week. I played games, scrolled Facebook, watched short videos, and followed everyone's posts and comments on my post on the school page. I finished my survey contest for the final test yesterday. I wasn't good. I think next week everyone in my school will know a person who won t...

 I have a new skill: don't care about how people think about me. I have practiced this skill over time, and it was very hard because it goes against my personality: selfish.  I used to love following trends. What my friends have, I must have. In my class, if my friends play in the lesson, I feel I must join them. This unintentionally caused me bad at studying many subjects. Studying while others play is difficult because it goes against my desires. However, I have to do that. I have a goal for my life: Study abroad. I can not reach my goal if I play.  Due to my peculiar personality, I have fewer friends in my class now. If it was me 1 year ago, I would care about that and try to please everyone. But me now, I won't. I accept that I become a nerd. A nerd can reach his dream. I found my dream place to study: Melbourne, Australia.  At present, I'm anxious because I have practice IELTS long times instead of play. I hope it will end after 2 months.

 - How much do you think you'll get?  - Probably an 8. Today's test wasn't too hard, right?  - Yeah...  This morning's Physics test wasn't too hard. As I hold the test paper in my hand, everyone is running around comparing their answers. I'd like to join in, too, but I couldn't do the test. There is nothing to compare, or maybe comparing will only make me more desperate.  I used to stood at the peak of admiration. I was a talented, outstanding student in the eyes of my teachers, friends, and parents. But now, I've hit the bottom. This puts more pressure on me, especially for someone who places a lot of importance on self-image. They may be shocked to learn the truth. Thinking about this makes me uncomfortable.  I'm thinking about the reason I chose this school and how I tried hard to get into it. And now, I've neglected my studies, with none of the passion I had back then.  I wasted my 10th-grade year on meaningless distractions. But looking back...

 After much contemplation, I've finally grasped why I'm perpetually time-pressed.  I don't have goal. That's the reason. I realized it many times ago, and tried to fix it. I have written my goal many times, in Notion, in Plan, in Note of my life, in my Blog. I told myself that I overcame wasting time. But the problem is I never follow my goal.  I just realized it today because I've been learning about stock investment, even though I only have a month left before the IELTS test. I know making money isn't my main goal, but I don't understand why I'm spending all my afternoons on stocks instead of preparing for the IELTS. I even skipped makeup classes at school just to focus on stock investment.  Nah, knowing the problem, but to solve the problem is a different story. My ability to stick to a plan is pretty weak. I can manage it for only a day or two before going back to my usual habits.  Mentioned again follow the plan, one month ago, I told myself I have ...

 Perhaps, during 3 years of high school, many of you have uttered these words? Compete, refugee, hate, envy, etc.  Originally, my class was formed by many members. Each person has a different personality. That creates diversity in my class. But, because of the different personalities, and differences in finances, my class lost its sense of unity.  It is my class. Almost all members of my class are boys. But I don't know, I don't know why my class dives into many groups??? As a class monitor, I can't do anything. Today is the teachers' day, I told my class to clap their hands when teachers come in, but no one heard me. Today, the girls celebrate boys' day for my class. But they gave presents by group. I couldn't do anything. I didn't play with any groups in my class. I play with everyone. I tried to fulfill my responsibility as a class monitor. But I don't know if I was right. I know my class dives into groups for a long time. But I denied it. I said to e...